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Entri 203 : Ghost

How many of you have you seen ghost?

Me neither as far as I can remember. Usually it is someone we know have seen the ghost, or someone we know someone else see the ghost.

Yet, we never see once. When we listen to their stories we tries to understand by reflecting what we have seen. Tried to gather any of our similar experience and give our best opinion although nobody ask.

So funny we come to comment, 'maybe you should see a counsellor' or 'you might have sadness' to reason why they see the thing that we cannot see. Most of the time it always about our, none or less about them.

My mom got Covid

My siblings along with their kids are wearing pink bracelet and me are far away helpless, tries my best to support.

We had sleepless night and share our worries but at the front my mom we pretend we are happy. We plays and told her, please treat this as your vacation.

Don't think much, please enjoy the vacation.
Everything is going to be fine.
Not only us face the Covid, there many other people experience the same thing.
No worries, do not stress. Covid won't able to kill us if we are positive.
All good words.

It sound like a hypocrite but ... I hope you will understand.

In the past, we always listen to Covid stories like listening to the ghost stories.

The hardest part is to explain to people who haven't go through it. 

It is me, personally. Nothing about other people. The most frightened thing in my life is to lose my trust toward people after telling the stories.

It's hard when you start to share and people brush it away and telling their experience instead. Maybe me too, did the same thing.

Now I do understand why some victims very hard to explain thing. The saddest thing is not the tragedy itself but people that they are going to lose their trust after sharing the tragedy. Tragedy it's hard already but having no one to trust is the hardest.

No wonder some say, 'be careful to problem to the people because it will show who they are.'

Knowing people's true color,  I guess I am not so ready to know it yet.

Ahh... deep in my heart it is so lonely because noone can listen like me expecting them to listen. 

Therefore, hasbiAllah, Lailahaillallah, alaihi tawakkaltu, wa huwa Rabbu arshil Azim.





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